Have patience with all things, but chiefly have patience with yourself. Do not lose courage in considering your own imperfections, but instantly set about remedying them...every day begin the task anew.
Saint Frances de Sales
Knitting two projects...both challenging, sewing an organizer for my knitting needles, exercising 3x per week, participating in a book club...maybe two, keeping up with my blog as well as my own writing journal, trying to figure out the next phase of my working life... by the expected and accepted time table but not really understanding it, and always keeping my regularly scheduled Dr. visits. For several weeks I've been able to keep up this pace. I'd hoped that this was like the remission of other illnesses. I was asked by my Dr. if this was too much for me. I assured her that I was enjoying it and not feeling any anxiety. Then the "pressured" speech began along with the elephant sitting on my chest, and difficulty counting 115 knitting stitches by two. I reached a certain number and drew a blank...I started to panic which made everything worse. I also had difficulty processing information that was spoken regarding important matters... which brought me almost to tears. I was making many knitting mistakes on simple skills. Things clearly began to crumble but I chose to step back, take a breath, have patience, ask for help and limit my activities. I'm feeling much better but I'm trying to find the courage to have patience with myself and to begin each day with reasonable goals that will help me to focus on the new day.
Step back and take a breath...
ReplyDeletethe best part about stepping back is that the things that are causing the stress are usually not the imortant things. we put all kinds of pressure on ourselves, or worse we let others put pressure on us. The key is finding the balance of what we must do, and what we want to do.... I'll let you know if I ever find it. Namaste....
ReplyDeleteKathy ... I had a day yesterday that was such a ball buster ... and what you said about stopping, taking a moment to breathe, and limiting activity really did work for me... I was so much happier at the end of the day...
ReplyDeletehttp://thespicegarden.blogspot.com/2011/03/greek-moussaka-easy-and-tasty.html
I wrote about the same frustration from a different perspective ... sigh.